Wednesday, April 7, 2010
that i will not putting up my thoughts & scratches...
Being blogger was nice BUT...
it's just worked for me on certain period not frequently...
writing, not into myself anymore...not anymore...
I did because i was inspired to do not because...
i love to do it...
it must be the sense of my creativity LOST in a while..
i believe i will get back again to write when i feel to do so but
it takes time...
what i really love to do right now...
listen to the romantic songs & do my own stuff
that's how i lived...
and i'm happy with it
Thanks again for following my blog
it's boring blog but..
i believe that i already deliver my speech n thought quite well
That's it, no more writing
i'm officially ended my session here as blogger..
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Commandment #1. Marriages are made in heaven. But so again, are thunder and lightning.
Commandment #2. If you want your spouse to listen and pay strict attention to every word you say, talk in your sleep.
Commandment #3. Marriage is grand and divorce is more grandeur!
Commandment #4. Married life is very interesting. In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens. In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens. In the third year, they both speak and the neighbors listen. In the forth year, they both speak in turn and the judges listen.
Commandment #5. When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing: Either the car is new or the wife is.
Commandment #6. Marriage is when a man and woman become entwined as one; the trouble starts when the woman wants to be on top... every time.
Commandment #7. Before marriage, a man will lie awake all night thinking about how to stay awake� After marriage, he will fall asleep immediately once he�s done.
Commandment #8. Every man wants a wife who is beautiful, understanding, economical, and a good cook. But the law allows only one wife.
Commandment #9. Every woman wants a man who is handsome, understanding, and economical and a considerate lover, but again, the law allows only one husband.
Commandment #10. Man is incomplete until he marries. After that, he is finished.
My comments : From first until the last commandment, i can't stop laughing myself that most of it are consider OBVIOUS evidences. As a man of honor, we should try to hide this things as for our sake but i know the women ~currently~ not really looked further when it comes to their first-hand marriage**wink**
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
well, today i'm not going to write about the REGRETS i had this year, it was MORE, believe me!! it will be the next next next entry, who knows??!! god knows the best. Recently, there are many things happened; quite unexpected but i would say, predicted and "i know this BAD thing will come".I was born with extraordinary power (sometimes powerless too!!) and well said, mediocre too.
EVERYBODY WAS BORN WITH THEIR SPECIALITIES, so do i...
to make it short, i might be able/sometimes predict BAD things will happen, it can turned up so fast and u may expect "wow, that actually really happen???oh, badass!!" but it can turn up in the other way round too. People said not everything comes as what u expected. I DO BELIEVE ON THAT but sometimes i ignore it too.
As i expected, one of my frenz failed to convince the people he actually/was born to be GREAT leader ( the same level with me, i guess!!!) and that was the first thought i had on him. ( the GREAT leader). Due to misunderstanding incident, he was acting emotionally, didn't replied any messages, frequently sent ANNOYING messages and sounded like THREATEN to us, and so on.
At the last minute, he didn't want to turned up himself and decided not to appear due to his egoism, another commitments and admitted that more contribution has already put in the first place to initiate the program. Seriously, this is really bad mindset and it could not help the situation. WORST than ever as result. that's how i think.
He has been told that his presence is needed here so that more dispute & pending jobs he left can be solve a.s.a.p but still he don't get it. Come on, my frenz!! u are excellent student with GREAT pointer but how can't u understand the simple thing about people's feeling. I admitted, he did so much for the program but he's not willing to let people knows his hardwork. That's why this thing happened. **sigh**
Now, he's not turned up and expected to held the meeting very soon in the next semester. I don't think he may get the same co-operation, same friendship, same smiles and so on. Well, it's easy to decide but the consequences, u will bear it along your life journey and people will not believe anymore in your principles. not anymore!!
He did answered "he confused about those stuff being throwed to him" and he lost the intention to come here to clarify and convince the team. HOW GREAT LEADER HE WAS. Thx a lot frenz and u killed my respect to u due to your egoism.
We are not perfect and i always know that...so do i....
WHAT WAS I THINKING ABOUT THIS?? **sigh**The truth was i'm already EXPECTED this might be happened in the future, some resources did told me how this fellow turned down some people and didn't keep his promise. I BELIEVE it's becoming more OBVIOUS and the true colours has revealed itself. **sigh**
I thought different colours, different races, different religions might give some positive tunes to the REALITY scene but that is not what i expected. One of my closed frenz told me, dun expect to much to him coz the result is not the same as what u want. She's right!!! Absolutely!!
The great power that i possessed might be guidance for me not to put 100% trust to the people closed to you. Even they are your family members, closed frenz or "wanna be" frenz and so on coz most of them are the same. Should i stop trusting people around me or just ignore it?? that depends how it influencing my life.
As conclusion, as for myself, do not put 100% trust to the people closed to you or people u care about ( they might turn up to be ur enemy!!), second, prediction and instinct, both are good ones and can protect us from harm myself, good prediction can avoid u some bad consequences and lastly, the decision to quit might be near than i expected. SOON.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
"LOSING WEIGHT, GAINING LIFE" that's the quote gained from the biggest loser, TV's most popular reality shows across the world (United States is the host until 8th season). This is the one reality shows that are worthy watching, have a DECENT PREMISE, compare to ridiculous reality shows, sometime make me discerning about what i watch **sigh**
The previous post, here, only talks about awareness of obesity or overweight. Since, The Biggest Loser Asia has already made their steps to embark the journey of reducing obesity in Asia, as malaysian, i'm inspired to lose my weight too.
QUESTION : CAN WE DO IT???
As for me, i have followed the series of exercise to improve my cardiac balance, muscle development through basic workout ( less than 30kg) to ensure my body can keep up with increasing weight of workout, consume protein supplementary suggested by gym instructor, regular exercise still in progress due to STRESS life and tight schedule as student. Too bad, i'm still consumed some UNHEALTHY food which is barely and hard to resist too. **gosh**. But still, i'm NOT LOST the intention to gaining my life and lost weight too. DON'T DEMOTIVATING!! :) here
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
S%$# through this week, UNFORTUNATE weeks entire my life...unexpected result with more STUPID surprises...i can't really stand anymore this "dramatic" situation...really...really can't anymore!!!
As everyone being SELFISH due to dean list addiction or fever, i'm feel the tense coz i'm not one of them. This is what we used to called +ve jealousy. I've grown tired with this. PLZ STOP BEING SELFISH. Not everyone is experiencing the way it supposed to be.
as for me: This is how i really felt right now, i dun really care what you guys thinking?? why should i care?? now i'm acting SELFISH too
i'm said : "how should i be patience and accept such unexpected result?? plz tell me how should i keep myself from not doing any sins/mistakes if this things always keep playing around my life??? i'm so fed up with this whole thingy..."
enough for now, i need to breath fresh air....instead of UMP's air...UMP is already polluted with SELFISH minded people.
THX again god coz again you make me tumble, crumble n crush down.....~F#$%~
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
How would you feel if everything's you've done so far to improve yourself performance it WORTHLESS??? i think most people do...
i have suffered this thing for a few years, it seems endless to me, why??? still, i keep asking myself for that too...i dunno why...why..why this thing happened??
Possible REASONS for me to keep THINKING are:
1) unsuitable course ( almost 4 years, i keep telling myself, i can be "better" with this stupid course rather than thinking about medical stuff, u know what was i thinking, F$#@ enough with this thing, i should just take another course but i can't afford to do that due to #$%@!&* family that i had right now, i'm so tensed)
2) bad grades ( almost 4 years, trying so hard to score & i keep telling myself (self-motivational), i can do better than this, still i've got BAD grades for most of the subjects especially BIO-Subjects, why??? S#$% and loathe myself coz what?? GOD SAID SO... i'm incompetent for all BIO-Subjects, so be it. foremost, the one who get the better grade is always the one i hate almost entire my life. Now DOUBLE UP tensed!!)
3) Excellent Speaker but BAD ACADEMIC PERFORMANCE ( almost 4 years, i'm experienced in many stuff that i have been appointed to do and most of it are accomplished the goal BUT when it comes to academic, VERY POOR, who should i blame that?? of coz, myself, incompetent to set up my time for study, friends n bla...bla...bla...i'm so damn FUCKING with this thing)
4) Family ( most of people will said, FAMILY is the most important one, i love my family, because of family i succeeded, bla...bla...bla...so many ways they said FAMILY is the one who influenced the positive of what they had right now. BUT as for me, NONE OF IT, because my family is PRESSURED, PROBLEMATIC, TENSED, ALMOST BAD STUFF, do call me freak or whatever you guys want but that's how i felt untill i'm reached 23 years old, nothing change for them, still the same way like they did keep pressuring and contained me. NOW, I'm REALLY MAD n TENSED)---> i keep myself away, away n away from them, coz i hated my entire life was depending on their opinions + decisions. that's how i ended up and if i'm always follow their opinions + decisions, SERIOUSLY, i will be ended up like MASJID guy or whatever GOOD guy they meant me to be. AGAIN, out of nowhere for me
As conclusion, almost 4 years, i had SPLENDID moment being here and grow at UMP, i thought i could change my life from miserable to BETTER ( i hate this word!!!! more than u could ever imagine!!). BUT IT WON'T CHANGE untill u have gone in this world. BE MAD WITH MY STATEMENT OR WHATEVER. i Don't care enough and i can;t just rely anymore with so many things coz WHAT??? GOD SAID SO...thx so much to fate n destiny i had to be in this world. THX AGAIN. I'm DEAD-MEAT...
Saturday, November 7, 2009
plant design presentation--> lab + subjects presentation--->
final year project in lab~that includes design expert software--hard to comprehend for the beginner----> what else?????????? ~time is preciousless~
i REALLY wish i'm working rite now at industry, make a $$$ like bulky or something else...rather than STUDY...oh GOD...i need STRENGTH...STRENGTH....**sigh**
SERIOUSLY, i'm OUT OF IDEAS. That's it!!